Everything's back to square one.
This had already happened once,
now it's back again.
This time, breaking my family up.
Th bastard, i shall name him ZNTT,
is back to "black-magic" my mother.
Th previous time,
when everything was already settled,
and mother already promised to not talk to ZNTT,
i thought it was all over.
but i was wrong.
That time,
when ZNTT did th illegal thing and used ahma's name,
for him to hire more workers for his business,
uncle wasn't happy about his doings.
uncle was totally right in sue-ing him,
getting him into jail.
uncle was just trying to be protective of ahma.
did he do wrong?
but what uncle did,
made mother become angry with uncle and even ahma.
i don't know what th hell is mother thinking at all.
she can even get angry with ahma over a stupid bastard ZNTT.
he got into jail,
and now he's out of it,
also back in action.
he already broken his own family up,
why come and break ours too?
not break our family of four,
but a family of six.
including uncle and ahma.
does he want mother to land in th same boat as him,
a old loner?
i can tell that father is being very protective of mother.
trying to make her feel secure.
but, mother took it as if he was controlling her.
just yesterday,
ZNTT suddenly called mother.
just right at that time,
father saw mother's phone vibrating with ZNTT's number.
today,
father called ZNTT.
th dumb ZNTT did th same thing as th previous time.
deny that he knows my mother.
when father reads his number out,
he hangs th phone.
call him again and again,
he just keeps hanging it up.
he has no guts at all.
he complained to mother, smsed mother,
i don't even know what he said to her,
and mother scolded father.
saying that he's creating trouble.
who's th start of all these?
if ZNTT didn't come into our lives,
if ZNTT didn't call mother,
will father even call ZNTT?
father just wanted to talk to him,
say a few words,
but th cowardly ZNTT just keeps hanging th phone,
not giving father a chance to say a word.
i can tell that father's very heartbroken,
very sad, very disappointed.
i've never seen him like this ever before.
seeing him sit in th living room,
staring into space,
i really can't help it but to cry.
why mother just can't understand how father feels?
rather,
understand how me and sister feel?
is mother insisting on separating th family?
father said;
if mother still stands on ZNTT's side,
if mother still chooses not to trust father,
they'll just have to go separate ways.
in short,
DIVORCE.
sister was trying so hard to talk to mother
when they had dinner together.
while i was listening to father,
when we had dinner together.
hearing about how he truly feels,
i controlled my tears.
mother came home,
i tried my best to tell her how i feel,
i tried my best to tell her how i think about all these that's happening.
she still thinks i don't understand.
yes,
i don't,
but i'm sure father would.
she said just one thing;
if not for you and your sister,
i would have long separated with him.
she went out of th room,
i totally burst out in tears.
mother's believing ZNTT instead of father.
that deserves a 'WOW'.
father said;
i can't believe,
after 19 years of marriage,
mother could just give up on everything,
just because of th bastard.
mother grew up in a richer family.
of course,
she had more pride.
she's a person who can cut off all ties just for her pride.
she wants to escape from reality,
cut off ties to show that she's right.
i don't know what this family has come to.
a state where me and sister is stuck in-between.
unable to help,
no matter what we say,
nothing makes a difference.
we can only sit there,
looking at our family drift apart.
mother asked me and sister to not bother,
to not care,
and just focus on our studies.
how can she expect us to not bother,
when we know that our family is breaking apart?
we don't want to bother too,
tell us not to,
but we just can't!
we are a part of th family too,
mother should listen to what we have to say,
instead of insisting on what she is thinking in her brains!
nothing that me, or sister, or father says,
will go into mother's heart, or brains.
mother never thought through it all thoroughly.
tonight,
father and mother would lock themselves in th room again,
and talk through everything.
if tonight things just don't go th way me, sister and father wants,
it's just all a simple word to describe.
GOODBYE.
i wish, i pray, please don't let our family break apart.
mother, please come to your senses, don't break us apart.
father, do your best tonight, me and sister are on your side.
God, i pray with all my heart, all i want is a complete happy family.
i don't mind not being wealthy, i don't mind not being healthy.
just having father, mother, sister, uncle, ahma,
by my side,
i'll be contented.
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